Tuesday, 16 November 2010

My weightwatchers journey to date

As most of you will know by now through twitter, facebook and text messages. I did it.
The nerves as I got ready and walked to my meeting was mental, you'd think this was my graduation day all over again! I made a wee video before I went in:




That driveway is short, but it has never felt so long, I wanted to run up it, but then didn't want to look like a total tool. I had to make sure I was there first and was the first one on the scales, I don't think I could have stood and waited watching everyone else get and stand there.

Once I got in and paid, I walked over to the scales, my stomach was in complete knots I was so nervous and horribly bloated. I took off my coat and cardigan and stood on the scales, my leader put my card into the scales and up came my loss. Down 1.5lbs! In my head I instantly though, "Yoh, a loss, how far to go now?" just as habit before my leader said "Congratulations" It was at this point I went into shock and it wasn't til later I came out of it and had a bit of a sob.

I know I've been on the program and I've been losing but I just can't believe I've done it. I can't believe I've lost the amount that I have mostly because, even at my heaviest weight, I don't think I ever realised how big I was.

I have a weird history with weight. As a girl, I focus on it quite a bit. Always thinking I was a big girl when to be fair, that was never true. I developed before most of my friends - seriously pretty sure I was the only first year in my class with boobs, and most of my friends were short and skinny / not hit puberty yet. So I always thought I was fat when, looking back, I actually wasn't.

As a kid I wasn't big (this picture cracks me up haha)


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And I'm going to start this photo journey from September 2005, when I was in my final year of school, mostly because all the pictures I have before then are... well have people in it I don't see or speak to anymore. In this picture I'm with my good friend @mariablaqk at our school formal. My head was very, very messed up at this time because, without going into too much detail, I was going through a nasty breakup and I was in the process of cutting ties with most of my childhood friends, things were destructive. I was not overweight, I was also not very happy.


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here I am on my very last day of school, I was a lot happier here. And beginning to find my repressed personality. Again, curvier than some other girls, awesome dimensions, thinking I was fat when I wasn't.


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It wasn't long after school I realised I wasn't as worthless, fat and ugly as I had thought. I actually began to like myself and my life and not too long after leaving school and coming to this conclusion, I met the wonderful Gavin. This is us at an 80's Disco. Awesome night. From these days onwards I'd say I'm very happy with myself and the way that life panned out (cheesey as all this seems).


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I suppose the one bother is that being in such a brilliant relationship you do begin to get comfortable, I slowly began to pile on weight. Pretty noticeable come my tech formal picture (April 2007):


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And my 20th Birthday pictures(July2007):


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Gavin's MA graduation December 2007


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Definitely noticeable as the years went on (August2008):


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Italy (for champions league final) May 2009:


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August 2009:


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Then, as I mentioned before I lost my uncle Gary. Words can't explain just how much I love this man. He was really a big brother to me growing up, and although in later years I didn't see him as much, the way he was taken was so quick and cruel I didn't know what to do. He was the first close family member I had ever lost and I had no clue how to deal with it. So I ate, and drank and cried, for many months. In February of this year me and Gavin went to Barcelona. It was a fantastic holiday but it wasn't until I came home and looked at my photos it hit me. I never see myself as a fat girl, not since I realised at school I wasn't one. And here was photographic evidence that I looked... well huge. Just before going on this holiday I had to buy a new coat and when the only one I liked and fitted me was one from Evans I knew something had to be done when I got home. This photo is me at the NuCamp in Barcelona, where another picture that was taken of me will forever haunt me. (I'll never post it here)


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When getting home I invested in a treadmill and started running. I lost a little, but it wasn't enough, and after participating in a #septemberstone hashtag on twitter the September before - and succeeding, I realised I needed an eating plan to go with my exercise. Here is me in February 2010:


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I chose weightwatchers as my plan because it was something I hadn't tried before, my mam and sister were on it and losing weight, and it had a maintenance program that when I read it, it sounded healthy. As opposed to some other programs. I started in March of this year and don't have a picture of myself then.

Here I am in April though, an easter break away to the spa in newcastle co.down. I'd lost about a stone and a half at this point (21lbs)


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And at my sisters boat party in May 2010, with my brother and sister, I had lost 2stone 3lbs at this point (31lbs)


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This was after my last exam in uni ever! Late May 2010 and 2stone 9.5 lost (37.5lbs)


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It's June and I'm on a picnic up the cavehill with 3 stone 4 lost! (46lbs)


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and this was the day my graduation dress came in the post too:

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July came and on my graduation day I was down 49.5lbs! (3stone 7.5)


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and at this point I was looking, and feeling like the real me again.

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It was also around this time, having hit the 50lbs lost, my weight began to plateau. I had my birthday weekend to the spa after my graduation:


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followed by a stressful and heartbreaking August.


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In September me and Gavin went away for our 4th anniversary to Paris and I was still at this point in such a mental mess I never posted pictures so here's a few (I was down 3stone 13.5lbs here) outside the Louvre:


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In Napoleon's chambers, taking a photo in his dresser:


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I adore this painting, and hate my posture here, I look like I have a tummy when I assure you I do not.


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It wasn't really until the end of October I managed to get myself out of my head. I was back to uni and knew if I didn't sort myself back out bad and convenient food could be the ruin of everything. So I buckled down.

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And lost the last 7 lbs in 5 weeks through pre-tracking, cutting out wine, bringing up my exercise levels and generally, sticking to the weightwatchers plan.

Which brings me back to today. I've had a couple of other members after congratulating me say "well it will take you a while to get used to being skinny now" I've had to bite my lip so not to go on my rant about the word 'skinny'. I have such issues with that word. And it really wasn't just about getting to the number, sure my weight is my weight, but there are so many non scale victories I have.

  • My skin is incredible there are days I can go with no make up at all other than a flick of eyeliner
  • I sleep better
  • My energy levels are way, way higher than they used to be
  • I feel better about myself, not so much confident, but better.

As I said, I never seen myself as a big girl, so mentally I've always been at this weight, so it was weird having people tell me it will be weird getting used to it.The only thing I've been finding odd is the amount of shops I can shop in these days, normally I could buy something in every shop. But now, I can buy everything in every shop if I want. So many new things!

Honestly, there has only been one bad thing about the weight loss and that is the fact I need a new wardrobe and don't have the money to replenish it (if anyone has any size12 dresses or tops they don't want send them my way, or size 10/12 jeans and skirts *wink*).

I'm still just so surprised that I've did it! I've completed this part of the journey and am very excited for the maintaining part. Having read through the first of my maintenance books the idea of having 6 more points a day seems mental! Especially when I feel satisfied with the amount that I eat at the moment! We'll just have to see how things go!

One thing I want to stress before I sign off today is that I will, of course, continue to blog, the weightwatchers journey isn't over, weightwatchers is a way of living, not a diet. And it works. I am total proof. You just need to actually want it, and (in my case) have a seriously supportive boyfriend, family and friends (especially twitter friends! Love you guys!).

So tonight there will be celebrations, probably not the smartest thing to do, but rewarding myself with a meal out seeing as I now have the extra 6 points a day! Chiquitos with Gavin, photos will be taken and I'll have a wee blog soon about those and my outfit for this wedding I'm going away for :)



Sarah xx

Monday, 15 November 2010

Could this week be *the* week?

In my last entry I had had enough of the yo-yoing, I had had enough of getting absolutely no where so I gave myself some aims for the week:




  • Pre-tracking, when I do it I manage to keep control of my points much easier and normally have a few spare on the evening as a treat

  • Stop having as many treats, I've found a lot of my treats have become threats (stolen those terms from this weeks meetings) and I want to stop having as many edible - or drinkable treats. I think I'll go back to getting new nailpolish, earrings or clothes as my treats. Screw the wine.

  • Exercise, my exercise routine has also became very, very lax. My running abilities have went back to beginner, and although I have my new bike I don't have the confidence to take it on the road yet - I also need to get a chain and lock for it. Basically all I do now is walk, and with the shit weather we've been having I'm really not up for that. So my aim is to have 30 minutes of something a day, be it a walk, run, cycle, shred or yoga on rest days.

  • I use the WW diary app on my android phone, and I love it, it's so handy and means I don't have to carry my folder with me everywhere, but I'm going to track before I eat, silly I know, but if I have the time to eat it, I have the time to record it first.



I also mentioned that I did not want to be drinking wine the way I have been, and last week I did each of these things.


I pretracked near enough every day and pretty much stuck to it, obviously allowing a wee bit of change depending on my tastes. I tracked every little thing that I ate on my phone and then each evening I physically wrote it into my tracker, highlighting all my filling foods. It's always so satisfying having a tracker totally full and highlighted.


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I cut down the treats to try and make them treats again, rather than just a bit of chocolate at the end of every day, I only had them on a day I exercised and I allowed them to only be part of my points of that day. As a side note,something I really meant to make a post about last week was the #30in30 I'm part off, it's a simple (yet genius) concept thought up by ilostanotherme, there are 30 days in November, each day do 30 minutes of exercise. And 15 days in I've managed to be still at it! Every day there has been a walk, run, cycle or gym routine done and I got to say, I feel great for it. Here's some pictures from when i walked to work one morning last week (for an early start, would normally get a bus).



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I made good decisions, even when out in town with the brilliant boyfriend, I chose the yummy baked potato from spud you like instead of my veggie bean burger that tempts me every time someone I know goes for a burger king.


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I've totallly cut out my wine intake, it is now only for a special occasion, so I'm not touching it until I go over to England in a few weeks or maybe the day I hit goal. We'll see. Anytime I've wanted to have a drink I've went for the vodka and a diet mixer.


And it all paid off! In my last weigh-in I managed to lose 3lbs! Which places me at 59.5 lbs lost in total and 0.5lbs to goal.


I've never ever been this close and this week I've tried hard to be good, though honestly it's been very difficult. You'd think it would be easy with something so big infront of me, but I've been tempted by so much so easily. But I'm feeling positive, and if I don't hit goal tomorrow at my weigh-in, I'll just hit it next week.


That's really all I have to say, though I swear there will be an entry tomorrow even if by mobile talking about my weigh-in. Until then, here's some pictures of various lunches and dinners I've had over the week. Nom.


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See you tomorrow!


Sarah xx

Tuesday, 2 November 2010

My Behaviours needs adjusted.

I have had the most ridiculous week ever. And I paid for it by putting on weight this week. I only had 1lb to make it to my goal and I've sabotaged it again and put on 2.5lbs.


I seriously have no idea what on earth is wrong with me. I've become way too comfortable with the program to the point where it's not working. Now to be fair it's all good for practice for maintenance, but I'm getting so frustrated that I'm so close and then I mess it up. And there's no point in really going on about what I want to do here because half the time I'm just not sticking to it! But I'm going to try and change my bad behaviours this week.


I think one of the big things this week (other than Halloween, which I adore) has been my alcohol intake, it's gotten absolutely ridiculous, and I don't know why. So I'm going to knock that on the head and put away all the wine I have into my globe bar and if I do have to drink this week (can't see this happening, but I'm going to plan in case it does) I'll go to the vodka and fanta zero.


I did have a lot of sweets and buns and all things bold this week but I think that was my own fault for having them in the house so they're all going away and thankfully the only crisps we have in the house now are walkers, I'm not a big crisp person, but if there's tayto about I'll be a greedy shite. While walkers crisps are horrible, so Gavin can much them all by himself!


Another thing that has really tempted me this week was a box of sweets that have just appeared in my work, a big box of celebrations, and there really is no 'just having one', so my plan of action when it comes to them is having gum or mints instead. I can't just have one.


My hopes for the week are:



  • Pre-tracking, when I do it I manage to keep control of my points much easier and normally have a few spare on the evening as a treat

  • Stop having as many treats, I've found a lot of my treats have become threats (stolen those terms from this weeks meetings) and I want to stop having as many edible - or drinkable treats. I think I'll go back to getting new nailpolish, earrings or clothes as my treats. Screw the wine.

  • Exercise, my exercise routine has also became very, very lax. My running abilities have went back to beginner, and although I have my new bike I don't have the confidence to take it on the road yet - I also need to get a chain and lock for it. Basically all I do now is walk, and with the shit weather we've been having I'm really not up for that. So my aim is to have 30 minutes of something a day, be it a walk, run, cycle, shred or yoga on rest days.

  • I use the WW diary app on my android phone, and I love it, it's so handy and means I don't have to carry my folder with me everywhere, but I'm going to track before I eat, silly I know, but if I have the time to eat it, I have the time to record it first.


 


I did want to stick in some Halloween pictures this week but I can't as my SD card became corrupt yesterday and everything is gone. Which is really, really crap considering how awesome I looked in costume. But sure I'll dress up again I'm sure and stick them in at some point.


The only other thing I want to mention in this is the new weightwatchers plan, I hadn't heard of this at all until this morning in my meeting, and all I know is that my leader has managed to lose 6lbs on it in a month but there are confidentiality clauses that they can't speak about it until December. I almost wish my leader hadn't said anything about the new plan that is being rolled out in January (in Northern Ireland) because now I'm way too fascinated with it, I want the new plan to play with and maybe refocus me to get rid of the last few pounds.


Now I did look it up, found an article in the Belfast Telegraph which I have been told is grossly misinformed so I won't even link it here, but to be fair, reading it I think I gathered that instantly (pure trash). Once it was mentioned there was a murmer of a fear that the plan may become a bit like a rival group (that will remain unmentioned) across my meeting, but I emailed a lady I know who is a weightwatchers leader who just rang me to put my mind at ease.  Although she didn't give me the slightest hint at what the program entails (sigh), in the new weightwatchers magazine, which is due out shortly, it will in all likeliness be mentioned, it isn't too far removed from the current point plan, from what I gather it looks like it's taking elements of the US plan and changing how we calculate the points and how many we can have in a day / week to make a more up to date plan.


One thing that made me smile is that it's going to be an easier plan for living, afterall, it's not a diet, it is a lifestyle change and above all, she stressed, that with the telegraphs article don't believe what you read in that, it was grossly misinformed and as I know myself, with weightwatchers, no food or drink is a sin, or will they ever be. I'm right and excited for it. though I'm hoping I will be at goal and therefore will only be using the maintenance aspects of it.


I shall try be good this week. I think I'm also going to make more use out of my @redrunner182 twitter account to voice things that I should blog about but don't have the time to at the minute.


 


Til next time,


Sazz


 


 


As and afterthought:


I seriously hope none of you on other weight management plans take any offence to my blithering, weightwatchers works for me where no other has, I mean I've lost nearly 60lbs in seven months, the bulk of that in the first five, and I'm a firm believer that as long as your plan works for you, then stick to it :)