Judgement.

The last few weeks on weightwatchers I've been annoying myself. I have a tendency to weigh myself, a lot, with my own weightwatchers branded home bathroom scales. I'd normally easily weigh myself five times a week.

It's been three full weeks since my last meeting and my tally of about five times a week has multiplied, by five. It's became compulsive. And the numbers are crazy. Some days numbers spanning 5 and 6lbs apart. Now that's not right is it?

So this week I decided I would be good. I would limit myself to one weigh in a day, and that was when I woke up. The numbers haven't been as erratic as normal. Until today, which is also weigh in day (more about that later). I have easily weighed myself ten times today and I think that's becasue I was initally bowled over by the first number, it was shockingly low. And in the subsequent weigh ins I have ranged from 0.5lb under the shockingly low weight, to 4lbs higher than it. I feel like my mind is going mad waiting, the now one hour and a half to my own meeting. I was contemplating on even attending an earlier meeting, just to put my mind at ease, but I resisted, mostly because I haven't seen my friend Anna since the last meeting and I miss her.

I'm petrified of this impending meeting, and I'll finish this post once I get home from it.

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So. The meeting is over. I'm all weighed in and those of you who follow me on twitter may already know that I've lost 2.5lbs

That brings me to a grand total of  52lbs lost in 22 weeks!

And doing my re-cap:

Week 1= Initial starting weigh in

Week 2= -9.5lbs!

Week 3= -2lbs

Week 4= -5.5lbs

Week 5= -1.5lbs

Week 6= week off for easter

Week 7= -2.5lbs

Week 8= -3lbs

Week 9= -4.5lbs

Week 10= -2.5

Week 11= -2.5

Week 12= -2.5

Week 13= -1.5

Week 14= -1.5

Week 15= -3

Week 16= -2

Week 17 = -2

Week 18= -2.5

Week 19= -1

Week 20= The world apparently stops in belfast on this date

Week 21= I was on holiday!

Week 22= -2.5

So I think my bold weekend away was compinsated by the perfect week I've had.

Seriously amazing week. In sticking to my 18 points a day I have saved a grand total of 29 points in the six days I've tracked this week (omitting tonight cus it's obviously not finished yet) and me earning, and not using any of the 18 activity points I've collected. I've never, ever had such a perfect week. So it paid off, 'cus I really dread to think what my indulgent weekend would have done to my loss if I didn't do it.

I'm also determined to try and do another perfect week. Where I want to earn a days worth of points through activity (and not eat those points). Plus stick to the 18 points every day. Interesting challenge to see if I can stick to it the entire time.

And I suppose the biggest thing I should talk about and I oddly haven't because I know in my heart I got it a few weeks ago, I'm at my 50lb loss, so I get my certificate for it, all laminated, next week.

I also talked to my leader about my goal to find out what I thought was my goal is actually a few pounds out. Not amused. So doing my math my next goal will be my 4 stone, which I'm 4lbs away from. And 4 lbs after that (so 8lbs from where I am now) will take me to my actual gold membership goal.

Ah, and I meant to say. I'm obviously close to goal. And I'm still abnormally attached to my membership card and my stickers on it. The rule is that when you get to gold membership (which I am, hell I've lost 52 lbs in 22 weeks, I'm sure I can shift the remaining few pounds in four weeks, maybe five) you have to trade in your blue card with your stickers for your gold one. I'm having none of that. So I reported mine missing today. (Jackie, if you ever read this I hate the whole lie that had to be said. I suck, how you didn't see through me is crazy, but I am too attached to those stickers to give them up!) and then, just because my leader is amazing, she said to me, you love the stickers, and she gave me replacement ones! Agh!!! (though I've lost one already, seriously, there's something wrong with me. Not at all amused) And I'll get my new card next week!

This post feels very scatty, feels like ages since I wrote a proper post. Longer than what it was from my last meeting.

No pictures in this one as well is probably putting me off, so I'll have to stick in a random birthday picture. This is one of the few full length ones I have in my birthday dress.I adore this dress and adore it's size. It's nicer without the leggings, but my right leg was in too bad a shape then not to wear them.

Woo, I'm 3.5 stone lighter in that picture than this one!

When ever I hit goal I'll compile a post of photographs the entire journey through. I've half started drafting it now. But I digress,

Til next time.

Sarah xx